January 7, 2007

  • I don't wanna grow up

    Does anyone else feel like their years of schooling have given them bupkiss in the way of living life? I mean, what the fuck does it matter if I'm drilled on the Edict of Worms or triangle congruency if I have absolutely no direction? How do all these people already in careers do it? How do you beat down that nagging feeling that even though you're being offered a good looking job, there is probably something so much better around the corner?

    I've tried going to career counselors and website, but you have to already have an idea of what you want to do for those to do any magic. I mean, I know what I don't want to do: I am very squeamish, so anything medical is a no; I have a very sensitive sense of smell, so something from "Dirty Jobs" won't work; and I'm pretty sure working with children is not for me.

    I'm told to take what I love and make a job out of it. Well, if there is job that requires me to travel around the world drinking good coffee and reading good books and sleeping late, sign me up! Alas, nothing on Monster.com matches that description. (side note: I really like the word "alas" so I'm sorry if I overuse it...it's just a fun word)

    In addition to not knowing what kind of job I want, I don't even know where I want to live. I know I don't want to stay here, or at least I think I don't. I've always been ready to hightail it out of here, but lately I'm realizing that there are some things I like about this area. Very few things, granted, but things. Once again, I know where I DON'T want to live: Texas, Burma, Mexico City. But there are so many places that get me buzzing.

    Sigh........what I really need is a computer that will scan my brain and just spit out a piece of paper with a job and location on it. Anyone want to get to work on that for me?